Best wishes and hope that he will rest in peace in heavens.

Even though i had only seen him a few times, that very few times i went back to china,
his departure still came as a piercing painful shock.

For my 16 years of life, i had nvr lose anyone close to me.
Well, unless u count my pet fish which lived with me for 3 years.
I dont mean to curse anyone but this really came as a shock to me.

He was my cousin's son.
When i first saw him, he was a cute bubbly one month old baby.
Big dewy eyes and a small nose accompanied by a small mouth,
he was a very handsome baby.

I love my cousin and her husband a lot
because they were really close to me when i was young.
Perhaps because of this, i really like him too.

Then. the next year i went back.
we received a disastrous piece of news.
I wasnt told of the disease but someone told me it was due to genetic disorder.
My cousin and her husband's genes do not match.

Sorrowful as i felt when i lay my eyes upon him, deep in my heart i still prayed and hoped that he will pull through.
"It wont happen to us" Those were clinche feelings and thoughts.

His eyes were still large and watery, but slightly protruding.
His frame- as though never growing- seemed too small and frail to support his head.
I used to think that big heads means that a baby would be very clever,
but he proved me wrong.
He is one, and he couldnt walk.
Still, till now, i still feel that he would be a smart boy if he had the chance to grow up.

But, no matter what and how i feel.
Its over.

Mum just phoned back to CHina as she would do every Sunday morning.
And the bad news arrived.

Maybe they had all expected that he wasnt going to live long..
But that's the saddest part, right?

i just regret not seeing him before he left.
Mum said this June when she went back to China,
he could even talk and call his mummy and daddy..

But all these are over.

i suppose he wont hurt that much now..
I cant say i miss him a lot because i had nvr really known him.
I had nvr even carry him before.
He smiled at me once.
thats all.

Yet, i cant help feeling remorseful for my cousin.
Losing your child isnt one of the easiest phase of life one can get through.
I do hope they will be alright.

Mum said that they do not intend to have another child anymore.
the reason was because that their genes totally dont match.
even if they try to have another child,
the percentage of him dying would be 50%

How cruel can life be.
If it was me, i wouldnt try either.
But it would be very depressing to know that u can never have a child of your own, your very very own.

Life isnt fair.
THey are kind and caring people.
They are few of the best people i've met.
SOmetimes i would wonder if they had a child,
the child would have been the happiest kid ever..
Yet, sometimes i wonder, would they ever regret marrying one another,
because this marriage has caused such a tragedy.
I should be wrong.

perhaps everything that happens really happened for a reason-
a reason that will benefit u in other unexpected ways in future.

i sincerely hope that my cousin and her husband will be fine
and pull through this unfortunate happening.
And i hope he will be a happy child dancing amongst the clouds=)

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